Sir.

The boy was 14 years old studying in class -IX of a suburbun school. Incidentaly he was very complacent as he used to stood first in his class . One day A young teacher with bright eyes came to their class and started lecturing about meditation. The young boy felt a magnetic attraction towards him. In couple of days that young man always accompanied with smell of Charminar pinned the baloon of complacence of this boy and hit him by saying that his complacence are not on the foudation of knowledge but ignorance .

The boy has never seen a teacher before that who recites Rabindaranath , Budhadeb basu , Jibanannda in the mathematics class

The jigantic personality of that teacher soon transformed this young student as one of his strong follower.

The intellectual world started becoming evident to the student of class-IX through This teacher . Science- Art - literature - Politics - religion - a world of argument thinking rethnking and development all are transformed through that beloved teacher My "TAPAN BABU"

The young boy grew up entered in to the Scottish church college came across Student politics attracted towards Marxism had a huge confrontaion with his teacher on Marxism on Atheism .

To his surprise the young boy observed, though his teacher confronts with him with a deeper knowledge and conviction but always encourages to think independently never commanded that as teacher his opinion should be regarded.

That student of class IX never noticed that he has turned young citizen of India and bonded with his teacher with passion ,respect geniosity , friendship and love

He shared his love and pain with his teacher . He felt that there is magnanimous shelter in his teacher and took defence under it whenever he was blooded in the struggle of his life

The young student is now of old man of fifty . The teacher was old and fighting with dreadly disease parkinson.

The poison of the desease has taken all his weapons he cannot move , cannot talk clearly but still he is fighting with his sharp intellect , bright eyes and undaunted smile

how can a man of strong believer of good , honest to the extreme and a staunch supporter of god now live under mercy .

Painful, my heart is quenching with pain. My beloved teacher , a man of self esteem a man of high intelect an complete teacher in all respect
deserves a glorious departure, why he is deprived why why ?

LONLINESS

Now a days I am feeling very lonely , deserted . A machine only performing his routine job.

Nobody is really kin to share my feelings. The office is like a drug to booz me once that drouziness is over I rediscover my self a lonely deserted man is walking on this planet

ELO MELO KICHU KATHA

Keno janina manta bhari bisanna hae ache . Kemon jeno mane hache sur kete geche. Jibaner ananda jeno anektai nisprava . benche thakata jeno prayojon haye parche .

Banchar Ananda , bhalobasar Ananda , sabi jeno nisprayojon.

DEATH ----- AN END or A BEGINING

August -- 1st August '89 I lost my "BAPI" I don't know really did I lost him? Every moment I feel him I miss him .This August 2010 on 1st Mejamama's Sradh ritual has been performed . One man added in the que of my memory How long it will be ! . 28th August Dipak ( my college friend Dipak ) lost his brother . No words to express my grief .

Is death is an ultimate end or a process of continuity of life . I dont know but it is painful to accept that one morning I will not be there.
" Jibana maraner Simana charae bandhu go tumi ke acho darae"

THE HEARSE

We stepped in our new flat in the year 2003. Since very first day in my new flat I was attracted to just opposite flat of my bedroom in "RITAYAN APT"

An old man wearing a white Dhoti and baniyan used to stand on his varanda with a news paper or some times he and his wife were burgaining the prices of vegitable from Varandah. I was curious as I could guess this old couple are lonely .latter on I came to know their son is staying abroad.

Some times in the evening I saw this old couple was watching TV . I don't know when but suddenly I am attracted towards this old couple and thought perhaps they are similar picture of us in our old days .. I kept on looking to their flats . Sometimes I saw untimely spring in thir Flat .. I saw some miidle aged man there and came to know he is the son of this old couple after few days again the same old loneliness engulfed their apartment.

The lady was the perfect image of Indian Wife with white sari and red varmilions are prominent on her white hairs . Many a times I saw her directing her maid for caring their plants in Varandah.

I dont know when I became sadened observing the monotonous tune of their day to day life and started attaching my near futures with them.
I shared this feeling with Ranjana , my wife.

The night before yesterday again I felt many peoples presence in their flat I told Ranjana perhaps their son has come . I was very happy by thinking some good time is due for this old couple.

Yesterday morning I took leave from my office I was sipping my second round of tea I saw the hearse entered the gate of "RITAYAN APT" .

The old lady was waiving her hands for final good bye to her beloved and only companion to her

The wreath offered to the deceased person by co flat owner contains the tag "In memory of Kumud Ranjan banerjee "

Oh.. the old man ...my future image I never went a few farlong ahead to get introduced with them I got introduced yesterday to Mr Kumud Ranjan Banerjee

GOOD BYE SIR.

JADI JANTEM AMAR MANER BAYTHA .......

MELANCHOLY PREVAILS ........

TINI BRIDHYO HALEN

Life is to some extent pale now . The gray hairs are continuously reminding me that hey you have already crossed 100 miles .

BUt my heart retaliates so what evn at the age of 50 why cant I still thrilled with the colour of life who stops me to embrace the romantisicim.

FATHER

I can not accept from my heart sadness to my sons . Though I know it is inevitable . Any life grows to its full boom through the road of lonliness, melancholy,frustration and Joy too.

I presume my sons are matured enough to cross the hurdles with greater maturity.

I wish them very best in their life ahead

Bipade tader raksha karo e nahe more parthana bipade jeno na kare tara vai.

DREAM WORLD

I want to get rid of ghastly activities all around but How ??

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MEDITATION

Desparately trying to restore my practice of little walking and 10-15 min mediation. I need it .

DETACHMENT

Our forefathers used to retire at the age of fifty from their daily routine of family life. perhaps that is the right age to retire . I am no longer feel attracted towards anything rather I enjoy to watch my life proceedings in a dispassionate manner.

Really do not know why ?

KNOW HOW TO LIVE A STRESSFUL ! LIFE

Stresfree a imaginary word rather we should tune ourselves to adopt stressful life .

CHARACTER OF A MIDDLE CLASS ARE THEY WANT TO BE RICH AND HATE POOR

Ami konodin njijer bari karbo ?? yes I Did it

Ami gari kinbo ! Seki ot to barolokera kene ? Yes I have done it also

AC bedroom ? Why not I can afford it


truly then I am a rich man without having any commitment to this hapless and helpless society !

Except that I pay income tax.

Chaposa Ei jibantar darkar ki?

LIFE IS ROLLING ON

As long as I am confined to myself in my little shelter with my wife and two sons I am quite a happy person . The moment I turn on to out side world my comfortability disappear ! Is it a hipocracy ? perhaps yes .

Amra sabai to bau bachha niye ghar kartei chai Tahole abar dukho dukho keno ?

Antlamo perhaps !!!!!!!

CONDOLENCE

I could not withstand last two days news paper . The melancholy prevails . I am pained so many people losses their near and dear ones .
I will never get that same flurys once again always It will make me rememer of those helpless soul who succumbed to death.

Politicians are playing their dirty games ... a bunch of busta....

" ACHE DUKHYO ACHE MRITYU .......TABUO SHANTI TABU ANANDA AMRITA MAJHE"

DEVASTATING FIRE AT PARK ST

Agaian and again oyr calous attitude towards safety measures are taking away inocent lives like today

Shame on us

BIRAHA BARO BHALO LAGE

Some times you need absence to feel a person presence more intensely......... True but one should now where to compromise. Compromise is the key word for better relation.. Absence to feel a presence is OK but one shoud know when to make end of absentisim to get the relation matured. I am shattered now a days to see the relations are only turning into separation ..... Why ?

STRESS FREE LIFE.

I dont know when I will get a stress free life . Atleast today I dont have such life.
GOOD NIGHT

EI SAHAR CHERE ANEK DURE

Though I love this city with all its shortcomings , Still some time I get suffocated in this Jungle of Concrete and in "Jana Araneye"
Deep in heart I have a passion of making a house with all green arounds. Not a very luxurious one but a reasonably comfortable.
I also wish that I coud sapre some times with some creative work ...
Let me wait for the appropriate time . Often I get impatient for nothing .
I must start daily walking and little meditation......

GETTING OLD

Many a times I feel I am becoming old and like every old many an emptiness engulfed me . But I know I am very much young at my mind. I get surprised why then such melancholy prevails. It is fact that you are not the controller of your surroundings . The natural tune of surroundings some times make me upset ! why can't I observe with a detached passion . Perhaps this is the most difficult task...... .
I wish my romantisism should not leave me till I last breathe..

Good night PPM.

HOLI HAI......................

LET THE YOUNG MINDS OF OUR COUNTRY REMAIN COLOURFUL . WISH THEY CAN ENJOY THEIR LIFE.

"ORE MON JATIL HAYE JA" Oh my dear Mind let us become complex

Cosmopolitan society and Complexity are perhaps goes side by side.

We are always behaving like a diplomat . Every body of us are always wearing a mask. Really we dont know one day we ourselves will be lost in the crowd of masks

MANAGEMENT

I believe essence of leading a good life depends on " MANAGEMENT "

1. HOW YOU SET UP YOUR PRIORITIES

2. HOW YOU SET YOUR TARGETS

3. MOST IMPRTANT IS HOW YOU SWITCH YOURSELF FROM ONE ASPECT TO OTHER

4. You should honestly review your actions with your self

I dont find any reason to be depressed provided you have atleast bare minimum earning for your livelyhood

I am dying as a humanbeing

I dont know whether I am having any left out emotions .turning into a robot . perhaps my tensions are also preprogrammed!!!!!!!!!!

A NEW TURN

JOINED INDUS TOWER TODAY

I am sad today

So many innocent people are again victim of bomb blast . Who is really gainer by killing innocent people ! Disturbed completely disturbed . My heart is bleeding . Ankit ,Anindyee , shilpa three nice bloosoom flower are torned into pieces .
I am completely shattered.

My 7 years 8 months innings of Reliance Communication has come to an end today. Tomorrow I am going to join at Indus tower

LAST DAY OF RELIANCE

MY 4th JOB AS A PROFESSIONAL ENDS TO DAY . A typical feeling sadness , indifference and agony mixed together.

GOOD BYE MY ALL RELIANCE COLLEAGUES . I WISHYOU VERY BEST FROM CORE OF MY HEART.

Wheneveer I enchant the Mantra " OM JABAKUSUMA SANKASANG...... " I like it but Why ?? Is It the reason that I consider Sun as holy god ?no never . I have no weakness on holy image of SUN.. but the "Nature" as a whole force me to bow down befor its vastness , calmness . I can distinctly feel that I am a tiny object ,is well tuned with this nature . I have no separate existance but am a part of whole universe . Perhaps my all beloved ones whom I lost so far during the journey of life are definitely hidden in this nature and watching me...

APPROACHING FINISHING LINE

Sounds negative ! but believe me I am not at all thinking in negaive way , but It is fact that many of my dreams ( perhaps cherished dreams ) has come true . Life has given me many things beyond my expectation . I want to be contended with , What else I want ?
Perhaps the most precious dream now is that I want to lead a tension free life from all aspect. The unfold chapters are sometimes make me worried . That is why If I think in selfish way, this is the best time to die .
Am I coward or escapist ? I dont know tomorrow may serve me new drink with Cheers...Why should I miss that ! If at all tomorrow is not that beautiful Let me say ..let me say from Core of my heart

" BIPADE MORE RAKSHA KARO E NAI MOR PRATHANA BIPADE AMI NA JENO KARI BHAI......"

ICHHE HOLO

JANINA BLOG E BANGLA LEKHA JAI KI NA ?

BRIDGE

Perhaps my cherised desire is to have a bridge between me any my next generation . I some time feel helpless , not able to communicate with my next generation . But still I feel perhaps they are more practical and robust to accept the present days Challenge ! I really don't know . Only I wish they should learn to apply breaks too besides accelerator

Mirror

Suddenly it flashed in my mind that there are many bubbles of thought in my mind , though they are not getting any shape. Perhaps I dont want to share those with anybody because they are solely belongs to me . Still I feel those are the stream of my mind and can be shared with myself. Just like a self potrait / Image before a mirror. let these blogs become a mirror of myself.

partha